Watch out naysayers... I'm coming... I'm on my way... And I will not be stopped...
No adversary, obstacle or negative thinking will stand in my way.
I'm inexorable, I'm relentless and I move with the invincible, merciless confidence of fate.
Ahem.
I know it's a full moon today, but if you don't mind (and even if you do) this eve I'd rather talk about Pluto.
Specifically my natal Pluto in the second house of earned income, values and self-worth, whose energy just seems to be growing exponentially as Saturn in Libra grows ever closer to conjoining it, and I approach the dreaded Pluto square.
Not to mention the ongoing pressure-cooker of the transiting Saturn-Pluto square as well.
Hence, here be my new credo - because I've really slipped into Saturn-Pluto mode. Which means ruthless. And focused. And inclined to get-to-the-point:
I am through with making dribs and drabs of money.
I am through with the belief that I have no value in the world.
I am through with what the New Age community likes to call 'poverty consciousness'.
To quote the title of the 1999 James Bond film: the world is not enough. No, it sure ain't. That's how hungry to succeed I've become.
My birth Pluto has had it with being financially insecure. And when I say 'had it', I mean that literally. It's been humiliated, it's been frustrated, it's been suppressed and it... has... had... it.
So.
One of the goals I've set myself in 2010, with its powerful manifesting energies and the defiant roar of the Chinese zodiac's archetypal Tiger is to find a way to make money that:
is totally transparent and legal
plays to my strengths in innovation, creativity and ease in communication
allows me flexibility of environment and time
powerfully leverages the effort expended to create a decent income
Even though I come from a conservative, reticent-to-take risks country, in which there seems to be no honest avenue of employment open to a jack-of-all-trades oddball like me...
Even though the break-up with my ex triggered a huge crisis in self-esteem and more anguished searching to finally find a way to stand on my own two feet and prosper...
And even though it seems like my life has been a protracted comedy of errors and ill-advised adventures into industries and modes of living that have no 'clout' or 'status' in the eyes of my peers...
...I have always believed that eventually, somehow, I would find a way to make money on my own terms.
And I am convinced that, even as the world continues to struggle to shake off the effects of the global economic downturn, abundance belongs to all, because we live in an abundant universe that longs to lavish us with prosperity.
And I guess when you have natal Pluto in the second (and the moon in Capricorn), there is no other choice but to harness the relentless drive to succeed.
Succeed, as in: tap the abundance that is everyone's birth-right without harming or burdening anyone else.
Succeed, as in: create wealth that allows for dignity and quality of life.
Succeed, as in: actualise the gifts you were born with, to acquire freedom with security.
When I was younger, I was never bothered by the thought that my money-making prospects were slim to none, given the artistically-inclined, try-it-and-see path I had chosen. Money, itself, meant even less.
But the birth chart, the universe's elegant timepiece, ticking away till the natal energies are activated at the right moment, had always pointed to a lifetime in which, eventually, there would come a great hunger to amass wealth.
So with my natal Pluto opposing natal Venus in the eighth, with both squaring natal Saturn in the 11th, it was always, ultimately, going to lead up to making a crucial choice:
Was I going to be poor or was I going to be rich?
I choose to be rich. And I vow that as the doors of abundance open to me, I will do all in my power to help others - especially those traditionally consigned to 'struggle' - artists, healers, freelancers - to self-actualise in the same way.
Right now, I'm researching a business possibility that looks very viable, even though I'd have to use up most of my savings to kick-start it. Will I take the plunge? More and more, I feel in my heart that I probably will.
Rest assured, you will be the first to know if it turns out to be a successful venture. Downturn or not, if I can turn my finances around, I'm definitely going to give you the information to be able to do it for yourselves, too.
Meanwhile, as the Virgo full moon (which falls in my first house) opposes the Sun-Jupe conjunction in Pisces in my seventh - meticulous drive facing off with the creative potential of high-minded, idealistic partnership - I leave you with two posts on this lunation.
The first from the blog of Elsa Panizzon; the second from the blog of Lynn Hayes. Enjoy.
